Is there anything I can help you with?

Nope! Obviously you can't help, !@$!!$$#@%$@!!

I called the bank two days ago and asked if I can defer my loan repayment. Guess what? Not possible. The first thing the agent told me was this:

"If you will not pay your loan, you will be charged penalty." 

Are you trying to intimidate me???

 I argued that the reason why I got a loan from them is because I was told that I can postpone my payments anytime.

It just irks me because they keep on giving me crappy reasons for not giving in to my request. They said that the policy changed. Then how come the deferment option is still mentioned in their list of fees??


"Uhhh, because those are for locals only, madam."

Are you discriminating me???

I asked for a copy of the policy, and they told me this:

"Madam, go to your branch"

So much for convenience!

Another Weird Night

I just remembered that a few weeks ago, I met with this business partner. In the same mall.
The moment we arrived at the mall, while looking for the parking entrance, a valet was apparently trying to get our attention. But because we were trying to get there ON TIME, I didn't notice.

Then this guy (dunno what nationality...probably british) driving a 4 x 4 signaled for me to pull over. So I did. He just told me that the valet from the hotel was calling me. Simply told him that I didn't really come from the hotel, I just passed by trying to find the parking.

But deep inside, I already had this nagging feeling that something is wrong. Guess what?! When I finally found a parking space, the next thing I checked were my tires. True enough, my front passenger tire was busted. A-GAIN!

I'm beginning to think this person and this mall is really bad news for me!

Necrophilia vs. Bestiality

Sorry to disappoint you folks, but this is a wholesome post. This will be my review for the movie New Moon. LOL.

I finally watched the movie yesterday and all I could think of was how buff Taylor Lautner is!! O - M - GEEE!!! I guess the best thing about it is there are no silly school girls screaming in the movie house. I love love love the effects!!

Most of the important scenes were already shown in promotional clips (youtube, hello!!) So there really wasn't anything to watch anymore. Edward fans would crucify me for this but for me.... bestiality wins! I'm a sucker for bad boys =D.

I love Jacob because:

1. He's hot. Literally hot. If you live in a place where it's really cold, then having a hot boyfriend is a must. 
2. He's big! I'm a tall girl and I really need somebody big to carry me. LOL
3. He's witty. He can really make me laugh.
4. He's playful. I need that in life. I don't want to grow old prematurely!!
5. He's loyal. 

Ok, Edward has his own plus points... and he's meant for Bella. They belong together. I love Edward for Bella. Jacob is mine! LOL

Edited to add:

Bella and Edward, seems like they both came from Buntong-Hininga School of Acting.  >.<

A Weird Night

Two nights ago we were going to meet a business partner at her house. However, this is the first time we'll be going there. This is unfamiliar territory for me. Originally, the plan was to meet at 8 pm, but, of course, at the last minute she called us up to say that we have to be there at 7:30.

Ohhh the pressure!! As expected, we couldn't find the way. The instructions were unclear.

"Go straight, if you see Rotana, take left. Round about right. Straight"

 First, which road do we take? And which Rotana? There are like three Rotana's in that area. We turned left but there was no round about....what now?

It was already 8 and we still have not found our way. We just decided to meet at the mall. Once in the parking, I took a parking ticket/stub so I'd know where I put my car. Coz by gaaaaad!! We're already late, we can't afford to lose the car in the middle of this huge parking lot!

Anyway, that's exactly what happened. I lost my car! Yep, even with the stub. I so hate that mall!! Took me about 10 minutes before I found it. Apparently there was a "mezzanine" for every floor. The reason why I can't find my car is because the elevator does not stop at these mezzanine floors. Gaah!

My business partner rode with us so that we won't get lost trying to find her house again. The meeting went fine. But when we went to her garage, my front tire was flat! Susme lang talagang kamalasan. Since these are "locals", we didn't even expect them to help. Its already 12 MN. And so for the very first time nagpalit ako ng gulong! (I changed the tire with a little help from my little cousin! LOL)

But of course, when I was all done, the spare tire is also flat! It's such a cruel joke, universe!! I had to drive really slow till we got to a petrol station and had some air pumped. 

Despite the weirdness, it was a good night.

Saint - Sinner

I just don't understand why until now people won't let go. Ok, I know you are now wary of posting in the forum or in your blogs. That's just normal. But c'mon, this did not happen to you. You weren't the victim here. And they already apologized to us. That should be the end of it.

Just to show how much I appreciate their reaching out to me, I'll share some excerpts of our conversations. (Yep, I have been in constant communication with them after everything)

"We understand how you feel about being the "laughing stock" and all, because at one point we all have been. And the truth is everyone CAN RIDICULE and BE RIDICULED.  We know what we have done is wrong, and that why we are asking for an apology.

It is quite not fair to reveal our personal contact information just so for everyone to see. Whatever past issues we had, we wanted this to end so as to help you and others release their hatred against us. We do hope that with this letter, you will erase those public blog posts so everyone can start with a clean slate. No more obvious messages attacking us in the boards, and we will do the same. We know this may take a while but we hope we could put this "online war" a thing of the past.  It was never our intention that the contents of the blog would go out of public. Again, it is a private conversation among friends. We apologize if things got out of hand and if we hurt people along the way."

If I may ask, WHO AMONG YOU (yes you whoever you are who's reading this) HAVE NOT, AT ANY POINT, RIDICULED SOMEONE? Don't tell me you are so perfect that you and you're friends have not laughed at somebody. Lahat naman tayo may na OKRAY na in public, what more kung kayo kayo na lang ng mga kaibigan mo?

I won't pretend to be clean and I will admit that even I have said some ugly stuff to other people (whether in GT or not). I too have been a bully at some point. I'm human after all. That is why I was able to forgive them. Because in my mind and in my heart, I would want to be forgiven too.

And this, for me, really showed their sincerity:

"Dear Ms. Shoutingwind,

I know we already sent apologies on you. But I want to make it a personal apology on my part.

I know I admit I went a little too overboard on defacing pictures and thinking about it I know it is very wrong and I'm very sorry. During those times I did it, I've been very careless and full of rants not thinking what might happen if those actions were done against me. I know I've hurt you in many ways and I want to apologize for it.

I just realized how shallow I was for doing that not even knowing you personally. There are lots of lessons I learned on this issue and one of them is about respecting people and opinions.

Again, I would like to say sorry to you. I'm not expecting that you will accept it, but at least I tried to reach out to you and let you know my deepest apologies. I know how you feel when you vent out your anger and I understand it. I just want to end all the commotions and stir it caused. "

- Candy

I know I already said this but I'm saying it again. It really made a difference that Candy (pink_candy) reached out to me.

This goes out to the GT community: If I was able to forgive them, why can't you? We now just want to move past this and start over again. Let's give each other a chance. 

I am not a saint. I am a sinner trying to do the right thing. I hope you do too.

A New Beginning

I woke up feeling better today.

I'm glad I did what I did because it really helped me a lot. I'm no longer carrying this heavy baggage and it feels so much better knowing that we no longer have to pretend that nothing happened. I would really like to thank them for reaching out, somehow.

As I've said, we just didn't have the chance to be friends. I'm sure they're good people too but hey, we all make mistakes. We all act stupid sometimes. (I just hope everyone else would give them another chance.)

Another thing that really hit me today is that I really am no longer a moderator. My permissions are now removed. I'm back to being a regular member. As much as it is a relief to be free from the responsibility of keeping the forum clean, I kind of miss my "delete/move" buttons. LOL!

Don't get me wrong, this is in no way a power trip rant. It's just that old habits are hard to break. It has been three years and everyday when I log in the first thing I'd see are the RTM's. Some are real issues, some are petty. Some are funny, some are just "hay naku!" reports.

Now I don't see those reports anymore. I just browse the threads and every now and then I'd chance upon some posts that would be considered as a violation. I'd automatically look for my "buttons". LOL.

Anyway, its a good day for starting over.

It is done!

I have removed my posts regarding the gtcovenph files.

I would like everyone to know that they have apologized for their actions and this is all I need. I wish for everyone to forget about this issue and let's start with a new slate.

I also hope that this experience taught us something. 

Spread the love sisters!

On Death and Suicide

Have you ever thought of suicide? Or death in general?

I have. I do still.

Let me clear it up first, I'm afraid to take my own life. I also think I'm afraid to die. Actually, its not that I'm afraid. I just don't want to die, not right now at least.

Why this post? I think its just something I have to let out. Get it out of my system.
I was driving to work earlier. At the intersection, just like what any driver is supposed to do, I checked all sides before I crossed. Then I had this very vivid image in my head. As I was crossing, a speeding car/truck slams on my car. Crushing me. This has happened a lot of times already. Either I get slammed by another vehicle or I hit somebody. I always want to die in my "day dream".

Sometimes, I think of killing myself. Think of ways to do it. Then I "wake up". It's weird coz in reality, I can never do it. It's as if I am two people. This usually happens when I get so depressed or facing some problem.

Gaaah!! I'm creeping myself out.

Layout

Why did I choose this layout?

Well, I love the retro "look". The graphics has this old school "bitchy" feel about it. LOL.
This is the first time I'm going to use a "feminine" layout. Most of the time I go for the "emo" look. I decided to change all that probably because I just had an epiphany yesterday.

There in my e-mail, is a reminder that bf's birthday is coming up. He's going to be 32 in a week. Then the reality hit me so fast I almost fell from my chair. I am 32! I have been in denial for sometime now that I forgot how old young I really am! I thought I was 30. HAHA!

So there, I thought I'd use a "womanly" layout.

ps. I don't feel old at all. Maybe a lot has changed (e.g. my alcohol tolerance, my weight, my pov's, etc) but I feel the same like 10 years ago.

Cancelled

What? No more multiply account?
Where would some heart shaped candy post my vandalized pictures? Where would they bash their yaya now? Oh I'm sure they'll find a way. They're smart like that.

Oh yes, we know. Don't act so innocent questioning why others are reacting this and that way. You should be ashamed of yourselves.

Moving on...

Ms. UberFan

So what's wrong if I changed my mind?

So what if I got hooked on the book only after watching the movie? Is that a crime?

Yes, yes. You are the uber fan. A part of the blessed few who from the start loved the book, loved the movie and then went crazy with every related merchandise and/or publication.

I on the other hand (along with others), got hooked just recently. You should not take that against any of us. Being the uber fan does not give you the right to vandalize my photos and make fun of me. You are so low. Tell that to your whole clan. HAH!

Self proclaimed members of a fictional group. What are we, twelve?

I just found out

I have stalkers. LOL!

They've been grabbing and vandalizing my photos. Well, good luck. As they say, hating me won't make YOU pretty.

You can call me names. After all, that's all you can do. =D

2008 Round-up

I know its late, but never too late for my first entry for 2009.

In January, the BF got lost in Hong Kong, I had a trip down memory lane with TLC, I got my driving license (on my parents 32nd wedding anniversary!) and I fell in love with Ben & Jerry.

February, I had an ugly encounter with a local resident, had heart-shaped doughnuts, its confirmed that I am getting older (bonggang bongga ang white hair!) and then I had my heart broken for the nth time.

March - my heart remains broken, a cab driver told me that I'm a fantasy girl, I received a flower on our anniversary, a cousin drove me nuts and Ken Lee girl made me laugh again.

April - I drove the car alone and I was able to do pie charts (LOL), people who must not named succeeded to annoy me and I got distracted with signs.

I skipped MAY!

June - I multiplied, the blog got a make over, fell inlove with Alanis all over again, Sex in the City made me cry... for the first time (I'm not a fan, ok!)

July - I got to know Live Writer, a pregnant man gives birth to a girl, a colleague tried to explain accountability, enjoyed Mamma Mia and another colleague tried to be sweet during my period (soplak tuloy siya)

August - I cried buckets of tears while watching PS I love you and then I tried to be fit with WII FIT.

September - Happy for my mom.

October - Had a long roller coaster holiday and enjoyed coffee in Central Perk.

November - moved by my sister's testimonial

December - I got hooked with Twilight!

So there, thats my year. I'm not really happy with 2008 though. I know I could have done more. I know I could have blogged more or something. I have always been a procrastinator. Actually, I always start something and then move on to other things. I hate that about myself, really.

This year, I promised myself to do more. In fact, I tried to research about procrastination so I'd know how to deal with my issues.

People who exhibit procrastination and decreased impulse control appear to be prone to internet addiction.

OMG, what a dilemma!

Twilight Mania

I know, I know...I'm too old for this kind of ... uhmm... stuff.

Twilight was just released here about a week or so ago. I've heard that it's good. It's supposed be very romantic. I've also read Stephanie Meyer's name in one of the forums that I frequent. (Hello Girltalk!!) I didn't really paid much attention to any of it. I mean, it's just a movie. It's just a book.

One ordinary day, my friends decided to watch Twilight. I had nothing to do so I dragged my cousin and we all went together. It was a holiday then, so imagine the chaos in front of the cinema. Parang perya lang! The movie starts in less than 5 minutes. It's time for a game plan. Divide and conquer, that's what we did. I went to the concession stand to get food, of course, and they took care of the tickets.

Seats were almost gone. We were just 9 rows away from the screen. Kamusta naman ang byahilo? Slutty teens Girls started screaming as soon as Edward Cullen appeared on screen. I was like, "wha???!". I wasn't impressed by his pasty look and prominent jaw. Sa totoo lang napangitan ako sa kanya. The shrieking harpies continued to annoy me everytime the male lead would appear. Sarap pagbabatuhin ng sapatos.

Anyhow, as the story progressed, they kind of ... grew on me. May kilig factor naman din pala talaga. At the end of the movie, kinikilig na din ako! This movie is cursed.

I got so addicted to it, I bought all four books. Read two of them in 3 days. I had to eat and sleep too. Hindi naman ako bampayar! There are lots of differences in the movie and the book. I like the book-Bella than the one in the movie. Mas funny si Bella sa book. But I can't imagine anybody else to play Edward Cullen. Robert Pattinson did a good job on this one, I think. Tho, I don't like Rob. I love him when he is in character. I like him when he is Cedric Diggory or Edward. HA!

I better get back to my reading. I'm on the last book.

My Sister

I really can't get over my baby sister's testimonial on friendster. I miss her so much I want to cry!!


jack

Posted 10/29/2008 11:43 am


ate miss na miss na talaga kita...
yung paguusap natin sa gabi kahit gusto nanating matulog...yung pagbabake...pagsusulatan ng notes sa fridge...yung pag ssslide sa kutson sa may hagdanan...yung mag lalaba at paglalaru ng tubig...yung pagtambay sa bubong habang nakikinig kay alanis...yung pagcocostume, maglilinis lang naman...paglalaru ng red allert...pag kain ng burger sa ever...pagpunta kila te aga and ate ai...yung pag gulong gulong natin habang nakikinig ng theme song ng bubblegang...pangungulit kay tatay...pagcoconcert para mangistorbo ng kapitbahay...pagpapaligo ng mga kuting...pagpunta ng spa, comedy bar and starbucks...pamimili ng damit...pagsama sayu sa paggym mo kuno(hehe)...paginom ng mainit na taho sa umaga...panonood ng movie (mayinuwi si nanay, si nanay sa bahay)...pagpipicture picture...pagaantay ng masasakyan sa kalye...

-->kahit anung meron ako ngayun, pagpapalit ko para lang magawa natin to ulit...= (

The one with the Holiday

Eid ul-Fitr or Id-ul-Fitr, often abbreviated to Eid, is a Muslim holiday that marks the end of Ramadan, the Islamic holy month of fasting. Eid is an Arabic word meaning "festivity", while Fiṭr means "to break the fast" (and can also mean "nature", from the word "fitrah"); and so the holiday symbolizes the breaking of the fasting period. It is celebrated starting on the first day of the Islamic month of Shawwal.

Eid ul-Fitr is a three day celebration and is sometimes also known as the "Smaller Eid" as compared to the Eid ul-Adha that lasts four days and is called the "Greater Eid". - wikipedia

Eid started on Tuesday. Weeks before, we already have agreed to make plans for the holiday. We all wanted to go out. We agreed on going out of town. We said we'll go crabbing. That was weeks ago, when we thought that everybody would get the same holiday.

But some of my friends are required to go to work on both days so we have to change our plans. On Monday night, we agreed to go to Dreamland Aquapark. We called everyone and they were willing to adjust their schedules. My problem was, Honeycured doesn't want to change HIS schedule. Suddenly the appeal of having 2 days off wore off. I knew it would be a mess.

As soon as I got home, the argument started. And it continued till next morning (Tuesday). While doing our "errands" (which was HIS plan) we were still arguing. But somehow we managed to talk it through. So I ended up going to the beach with my friends.

They said we will pick up friend 1 and friend 2 at 12 pm. That was almost 11:30. At 1:30 I decided to call. Apparently they were almost at friend 1's place. So I said I'll pick up friend 2 and we can just meet at friend 1's and then we go all together.

When I reached #1's place, they were on their way to #2! Duh!! It was clear that we were meeting at #1. Apparently, they agreed to pick up #1 while another car fetches #2. And then they will meet me at my house which was the original plan. (I'm getting confused myself as I am writing this) Anyway, they said to meet at #2 instead so I drove. And then the made me stop coz they'll meet me wherever. It's so confusing and out of frustration I blurted out:

"Mahal na gasolina ngayon!"

Kamusta naman ang pag papa ikot ikot namin? Hilong hilo na ako! Pinuntahan namin ngayon yung isa pang couple sa bahay ni #2 na supposedly susundo sa kanya pero dahil ako ang sumundo, wala na siya dun. haller! Nung nakumpletos rekados na kami, tinawagan naman ng boss nya etong isang friend na nasa other car. Pinapasok pa. So lipat bahay si missis at sa akin sumakay. Hay finally, ready na kami.

But then again, the wife found out that she has his wallet! Tumambling na naman ako. We called and sms'd him coz the wallet has his driving license in it. So nagkita kita kaming muli, nag paalamanan at umaasang makakahabol na lang siya. Alas tres na ito.

Pagdating sa beach, wala na parking at ang daming tao. Samu't saring amoy ang nandun. May amoy bbq, amoy usok, amoy putok. Naglatag na lang kami ng banig sa may damuhan at doon kumain ng cheeseburger na kalasa ng Burger Machine. Matapos non, nagsipag langoy na sila habang ako at yung dalawang kasama ko sa sasakyan ay nag tong its.

After that, we decided to meet the husband in a mall. Eh kamusta naman ang traffic!! May fireworks display kasi. Nagpaikot ikot na naman kami. Bonamine please!!! Nang magkita kita kami sa loob, wala na din place para kumain dahil jam-packed ang mga resto. Nasabik siguro kumain ang mga hitad matapos ng pagfafasting!

We decided to go to Jollibee instead. So ok na, mag jollibee na lang tayo! When we got there, wala na din available seats. Hay.

We decided to go, TGIF. At dahil hindi ko kabisado ang daan, maka ilang beses ako napadpad sa maling lane at muntik madisgrasya sa pag mamaneho. Pati yung mag asawang sumusunod lang sa amin muntik ma aberya!

Pagdating sa paradahan, dali dali akong bumaba at kinamusta yung mga nakabuntot sa amin. Dala ng gutom at pagod, dumerecho kami sa TGIF pero hindi na pala doon kakain. Dun na lang daw sa Oriental Eklavu. BONAMINEEE!!!

Pagka upong pagka upo, umorder agad at pinag mamadali ko pa yung waiter kasi gutom na talaga. Sa haba ng table namin, nahati sa tatlo ang pag oorder. Keber na kung ready kumain ung dalawang grupo basta kami lafez na.

Minadali ko na din sila kumain kasi naman lumalalim na ang gabi. Inaantok na ako. Ayoko naman makatulog sa pagda drive! Awa ng juice, nung palabas na kami ng resto saka ko na realize wala pala ang susi ng kotse sa bag ko. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig! Nagmamadali akong lumakad patungo sa kotse ko. Waah! Nandun ang susi, buon ningning na nakasaksak.

To make matters worst, di ko pa pala napatay yung makina! haller!!!

In the end, tinawagan ko si Honeycured para dalhin ang spare key. Hay, hanggang sa huling sandali, may aberya pa din!

Wii Fit, Wii Fit Good!

I just bought Wii Fit last week. I was a bit skeptical at first thinking that it's just another game. I refuse to be exploited by these manufacturers. Me thinks that this battle of the consoles is just a waste of time and money.

I already have PSP (slim) which is very handy. Keeps me busy whenever I am traveling or just plain bored.

I wanted to buy PS2 before but changed my mind. A friend of mine told me that Xbox is good. She me offered a huge discount. I bought one as a gift to someone. I said then that I would not be caught alive with any of these games coz it's just too expensive!

But then again, I met Wii fit. I fell in love with it the moment I stepped on my friends balance board. I was dizzy, out of breath and sweating after just 10 minutes. Love it to bits! I didn't waste anymore time. I bought myself one the next day!

So now, I have Wii at home. Now I can say losing weight is fun! Hula hoops and step dancing are my favorites. I also do yoga and some strength training. I'm keeping track of my progress and I'm lovin' it.

Leave me alone

It's that time of the month and I haven't been feeling well for the past three days. Been cranky and bitchy the whole time.

Then this morning, my male colleague decided to ask me, no... he demanded I tell him what's bothering me.

How do you say to a guy that you're PMSing without actually telling him? He was really squeezing me for answers.

"c'mon you can tell me anything."

"what's up with you?"

"tell me..."

I wanted to punch him in the nose and scream... LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

Incomplete

It was J 's Alanis entry that pushed me to listen to Ms. Morissette's album; Flavors of Entanglement.

I can so relate to "incomplete"

One day I'll find relief
I'll be arrived
And I'll be friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
of being forever incomplete

Yeah, I've been running my whole life...just wanting to get there. I may be funny, but I'm not always happy.

And yes, I'm considering adoption. It's just something I want to do. Basta, yun na yun!

One day my mind will retreat
And I'll know God
And I'll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
One day I'll be secure
Like the women I see on their thirtieth anniversaries

I love Alanis' version of God.

Ever unfolding
Ever expanding
Ever adventurous
And torturous
But never done

This is just so me. Never done...

What have I done?

I upgraded my blogger and now I can't settle on the "look" of my blog. So bear with me while i tweak.