A Weird Night

Two nights ago we were going to meet a business partner at her house. However, this is the first time we'll be going there. This is unfamiliar territory for me. Originally, the plan was to meet at 8 pm, but, of course, at the last minute she called us up to say that we have to be there at 7:30.

Ohhh the pressure!! As expected, we couldn't find the way. The instructions were unclear.

"Go straight, if you see Rotana, take left. Round about right. Straight"

 First, which road do we take? And which Rotana? There are like three Rotana's in that area. We turned left but there was no round about....what now?

It was already 8 and we still have not found our way. We just decided to meet at the mall. Once in the parking, I took a parking ticket/stub so I'd know where I put my car. Coz by gaaaaad!! We're already late, we can't afford to lose the car in the middle of this huge parking lot!

Anyway, that's exactly what happened. I lost my car! Yep, even with the stub. I so hate that mall!! Took me about 10 minutes before I found it. Apparently there was a "mezzanine" for every floor. The reason why I can't find my car is because the elevator does not stop at these mezzanine floors. Gaah!

My business partner rode with us so that we won't get lost trying to find her house again. The meeting went fine. But when we went to her garage, my front tire was flat! Susme lang talagang kamalasan. Since these are "locals", we didn't even expect them to help. Its already 12 MN. And so for the very first time nagpalit ako ng gulong! (I changed the tire with a little help from my little cousin! LOL)

But of course, when I was all done, the spare tire is also flat! It's such a cruel joke, universe!! I had to drive really slow till we got to a petrol station and had some air pumped. 

Despite the weirdness, it was a good night.

Frustration

Some people are just so judgmental! They now say that I resigned from my post as moderator because of the recent issue. Duh!! That happened seven months ago. Why resign now?

In case it's not clear enough, the resignation was a team decision. We had internal and personal reasons for exiting. And when I say personal reasons, this has got to do with our personal lives in the REAL WORLD.

Another comment I got was that, "masyado ka nagpapaka SANTA". Santa Clause? LOL. This comment came from... uh... wait... ANONYMOUS!

Anyway, maybe you just can't comprehend what I'm trying to say. Maybe you just can't let go. Maybe you are a lot of things that I am not.

So yeah, I am frustrated. Because I just want this to end. I feel no anger. Just frustration.

Saint - Sinner

I just don't understand why until now people won't let go. Ok, I know you are now wary of posting in the forum or in your blogs. That's just normal. But c'mon, this did not happen to you. You weren't the victim here. And they already apologized to us. That should be the end of it.

Just to show how much I appreciate their reaching out to me, I'll share some excerpts of our conversations. (Yep, I have been in constant communication with them after everything)

"We understand how you feel about being the "laughing stock" and all, because at one point we all have been. And the truth is everyone CAN RIDICULE and BE RIDICULED.  We know what we have done is wrong, and that why we are asking for an apology.

It is quite not fair to reveal our personal contact information just so for everyone to see. Whatever past issues we had, we wanted this to end so as to help you and others release their hatred against us. We do hope that with this letter, you will erase those public blog posts so everyone can start with a clean slate. No more obvious messages attacking us in the boards, and we will do the same. We know this may take a while but we hope we could put this "online war" a thing of the past.  It was never our intention that the contents of the blog would go out of public. Again, it is a private conversation among friends. We apologize if things got out of hand and if we hurt people along the way."

If I may ask, WHO AMONG YOU (yes you whoever you are who's reading this) HAVE NOT, AT ANY POINT, RIDICULED SOMEONE? Don't tell me you are so perfect that you and you're friends have not laughed at somebody. Lahat naman tayo may na OKRAY na in public, what more kung kayo kayo na lang ng mga kaibigan mo?

I won't pretend to be clean and I will admit that even I have said some ugly stuff to other people (whether in GT or not). I too have been a bully at some point. I'm human after all. That is why I was able to forgive them. Because in my mind and in my heart, I would want to be forgiven too.

And this, for me, really showed their sincerity:

"Dear Ms. Shoutingwind,

I know we already sent apologies on you. But I want to make it a personal apology on my part.

I know I admit I went a little too overboard on defacing pictures and thinking about it I know it is very wrong and I'm very sorry. During those times I did it, I've been very careless and full of rants not thinking what might happen if those actions were done against me. I know I've hurt you in many ways and I want to apologize for it.

I just realized how shallow I was for doing that not even knowing you personally. There are lots of lessons I learned on this issue and one of them is about respecting people and opinions.

Again, I would like to say sorry to you. I'm not expecting that you will accept it, but at least I tried to reach out to you and let you know my deepest apologies. I know how you feel when you vent out your anger and I understand it. I just want to end all the commotions and stir it caused. "

- Candy

I know I already said this but I'm saying it again. It really made a difference that Candy (pink_candy) reached out to me.

This goes out to the GT community: If I was able to forgive them, why can't you? We now just want to move past this and start over again. Let's give each other a chance. 

I am not a saint. I am a sinner trying to do the right thing. I hope you do too.

A New Beginning

I woke up feeling better today.

I'm glad I did what I did because it really helped me a lot. I'm no longer carrying this heavy baggage and it feels so much better knowing that we no longer have to pretend that nothing happened. I would really like to thank them for reaching out, somehow.

As I've said, we just didn't have the chance to be friends. I'm sure they're good people too but hey, we all make mistakes. We all act stupid sometimes. (I just hope everyone else would give them another chance.)

Another thing that really hit me today is that I really am no longer a moderator. My permissions are now removed. I'm back to being a regular member. As much as it is a relief to be free from the responsibility of keeping the forum clean, I kind of miss my "delete/move" buttons. LOL!

Don't get me wrong, this is in no way a power trip rant. It's just that old habits are hard to break. It has been three years and everyday when I log in the first thing I'd see are the RTM's. Some are real issues, some are petty. Some are funny, some are just "hay naku!" reports.

Now I don't see those reports anymore. I just browse the threads and every now and then I'd chance upon some posts that would be considered as a violation. I'd automatically look for my "buttons". LOL.

Anyway, its a good day for starting over.

It is done!

I have removed my posts regarding the gtcovenph files.

I would like everyone to know that they have apologized for their actions and this is all I need. I wish for everyone to forget about this issue and let's start with a new slate.

I also hope that this experience taught us something. 

Spread the love sisters!

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Total Eclipse of the Heart



Anything for Love - Meatloaf

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15 Days Before Michael Jackson's Death

This is supposedly taken 15 days before his death. He says: "good, great".



For a couple of weeks now, I've been hearing promotions and massive marketing for his concert in London. Radio stations have contests so a lucky winner can go watch the King of Pop. What will happen now?

Just heard through the radio that relatives of Michael Jackson are requesting for 2nd autopsy. Initial examination failed to explain the cause of MJ's death. Toxicology tests are still pending as it usually takes four to six weeks.

MORE HERE

Haydengate: Another Video Leak

This time with an unknown female.

Whoever is uploading the videos is really sick in the head. It seems that whoever it is wants this thing to drag for a very very long time. Somebody must be really bitter.

This is the 7th installment of the Haydengate Files. These files are very popular in torrent and file sharing sites. So, should we expect more? After all, there are 40 videos, right?

What's your reaction? Leave your comments.

Michael Jackson, dead at 50

Michael Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009) was an American recording artist and entertainer. On the morning of June 25, 2009, Jackson reportedly collapsed at a rented home in Holmby Hills in Los Angeles. After he collapsed, Jackson's personal physician, who was with him at the time, attempted to resuscitate him. The cause of death is reported to be cardiac arrest. Jackson was pronounced dead at about 2:26 pm local time (21:26 UTC).

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michael_jackson

I would just like to share a favorite MJ song:

"I'm not ready for the icons of my youth to start dying... " - Shonda Rhimes